Justin Bieber has been struggling with his emotions of late and has found himself in crisis yet again after being named Billboard Music Awards Top Male Artist on Sunday. He did not look very excited as he received the prestigious award.

He later took to Instagram and posted a picture, captioning it, “No disrespect to anybody at any of the shows or the people running it.... But I don’t feel good when I’m there nor after. I try to think of it as a celebration but can’t help feeling like people are rating and grading my performance.”

Justin added, “...these award shows seem so hollow. I get the premise is to award people for their accomplishments, but is it really Because when I look in the audience I see a bunch of fake smiles so that when the camera hits them they look happy.”